affinity

Today, it's the first time that I had my lunch with ky, finally... happy now, we used to study together and we're working under the same building now, haha... So happen that the lunch was served so late, I went back to office a bit late than usual, which my colleagues who went for lunch later than me have even come back earlier than me. Regardless of what, I knew that I was going to have to OT tonight, even on the coming public holiday... =_=

Shortly after I came back to my seat, I was quite bothered by some noise come by the window. In the end, I was so shocked to find out that a man was actually dangling outside. At once I asked my colleagues to see and jokingly I told them there's a spiderman out there. With two slim strings holding on his waistline, he's all drenched from tip to toe. While trying to clean the window, he kept kicking against the window from time to time as if trying to grab for a better leverage so he won't be swinging too far off, or maybe the wind today was just too strong to bear with. The sun was glaring too. With all these in sight, I felt that I was just so bad and shallow to have actually made fun of him. I then started to observe him, his every move in cleaning the window have reminded me of my father who's making a living so far off our home. Seeing this window-cleaner had urged a gust of sourness in my nostril, yet I'm glad that my father won't need to risk his life being a window-cleaner. Mind you, my office is at 10th floor...

Well, it has been two days I didn't see my family, let alone chatting with them. Though every evening, I'll receive their call to ask me when will I be home. In the morning when I woke up, they've all gone out; whereas at night when I came back from work, they were already sleeping. I didn't get to see them at all. Not even a glance... To top it off, I've heard of too much sad news this week, from one I read from newspaper to the one that recounted by my friend. I don't know where to start, and certainly do not know when is it going to end.

the eye

I'm super tired now. Even feel like sleeping on the way when I drove back from work, as I've been staying up quite late till 12 since last weekend and of course wake up so early lately.

Well, besides the numbers and new software, the part that makes me headache the most has to be the every morning welcome greeting from the congested traffic...

Wakao... I'm quite liao gong for the first few days because I never know that KL can have so many cars and as if all squeezed out at one time... -_- and later on, I become very gek sim because the motorcyclist always like to honk me. WEI... it's like I was driving in my own lane, stuck in the nightmarish traffic also they will honk me, shoo you to give way, or honk you to move further a bit so they can dash forward faster... -___- Susu told me don't be sad, cause one day I'll become very numb like her... 'you jam la, I don't care' kinda attitude... Maybe one day if I cannot tahan already, I think I'll join the dark force, to be a motorcyclist. =p

Today, was a bad day for me. Woke up and I saw a sleepy pig in the mirror, not only with fluffy hair, but SHIT with a swelling eye!!! It's a mosquito bite anyway, should be a blessing in disguise cause it wasn't ngan tiu zam'... just a swollen red spot beneath my eye bag..... =( YET, still it's very shitty in sucha situation that made me started to think, whether or not I should go to work, with that swollen and reddish eye... Think think think... Finally I made up my mind!! wo kuo chu qu le!!! I applied a layer of thick oilment on it. Really felt like crying early in the morning la shit. (you try to imagine, I put Tiger Balm Oilment around my eye, >-*~~~) As I already mentioned earlier, congested traffic time!! chance is, keh poh motorcyclist/driver will spot on me driving with one-eye-closed when the traffic is moving slow, came to think of this, my heart squirmed a lil suddenly ... BUT, wo shuo wo kuo chu qu lehhhhh!!!! So quickly, I reached out for my sunglasses, and put it on, and happily again with a 50% impaired eye-sight, I reached the destination safely. No more reddish and swollen wohooooo!!! Not a bad quick fix afterall... hehe!! What a day!!!

ps: Yesterday night, I was trying to chat with these two long lost Liverpool mates of mine, as they missed out the last gathering, but then I went to PK sudoku with my friends and left them two in the chat room... Jin and Benji, paiseh paiseh *-*

gtg off d. I can collapse anytime soon. Bye all.

TGI Friday

Friday, all happy. When I'm about to leave the office, mom called up saying that she will be dining out with her friends. Fine. Anyway, I decided not to stay and left the building, strode down the street with the rain pouring on my head, not too heavy, just miserable drizzle. I called A, she's already dining with her bf and will then go pak tor and watch movie. Fine. Called B, oh still working. Fine. Called C, engaged. Fine. Called D, reached home and about to dine at home as well. Fine. Called E, another engaged. Fine. If I wasn't t stuck in the middle of the traffic jam, I would have already gone back to the office and work till mid night... Anyway, I took another route home but to realise later that I was stranded for an even longer time. Fine. Before I finally reached home, utterly bleak I took a quick turn into McD, but before I at last drove through and takeaway, I called F, who's still sleeping and told me that he already had his dinner. Fine. I bought a set of filet-o-fish and then drove back home. Not until I finished my McD, I sniffed the aroma of fried chicken, the one who was sleeping and told me he was full just half an hour ago, was caught gnawing at a box of KFC......

Forsaken, I reckon that I have no family, no friends, no nothing.

Home, alone. Thanks goodness, it's Friday...

a pretending to be busy day

It's 6 now and i actually reach home half an hour ago. The first day is just as what the title reflects, it is literally a pretending to be busy day, while all others are in fact really really busy... Due to the free-ness, I was allowed to go home early today... yipee!!!

Well, very abnormally I slept at 9 yesterday, woke up around 11 but luckily still manage to get back to sleep... All because of the tiredness that I piled up day before yumcha-ing with the power rangers, which I only got 4 hours of sleep, SO i can sleep so early yesterday =p Here my working life start, gonna sleep early rise early niao...

Didn't do much, except sorting out the latest magazine for my boss, flipping through the reports they've done last year, which I have less idea of what the table shows -_- and I actually started googling the those media terminologies that I don't know or that I've learnt before but forgot -____- aih, life is tough ar...

But ha good thing is that they provide free flow of magazine in the office, from local ones to the very cun imported mag... and so the rest of the day I was occupied by the magazines while the other colleagues were all still very busy. Sound that I could possibly hear comes only from keyboard typing, mouse clicking, once in a while overheard them talking to clients, all were so serious... Remember what the IT guy who came setting up my computer for me this morning told me that "Since you're in this team, don't try to download MSN, or you'll kena nanti!" >_<>

Till then.

*I start to miss the time back at home already... =s

c'est la vie

After holidaying for 3.5 months, the views of future finally begin to gain traction in something settled and serious. The whole process was filled with helpless dread when sometimes I don't exactly know what I want. Yet when you see one by one, your friends have already kick-started in their career, you are still uselessly loitering at home like a pig.

Getting the offer of job was something out of the expectation as I didn't believe in myself for this time. Despite the fact that I've to complete the test in 30 minutes, which I didn't think that I've done well; I stumbled over a question and was left uhmmm...err... It was blessing in disguise afterall. =)

On the way home, I passed by a primary school, seeing there're kids all in their blue and white uniform, chasing after each other, playing and laughing. All at once, the happiness and excitement tingled with faint sorrow. In retrospect of how my primary school life used to be, it was carefree and full of fun. Looking back it felt like I just graduated from there not long ago, but hey, 11 years coming... Now, I'm about to enter a totally new chapter of my life which is awaited to be read and explored...

Before I end this entry, I have some important people to thank to: Firstly, Doreen of course ^^, for her kindness and help, without her telling me I would have no knowledge of this company. Also, the Fatty who always back me throughout the ups and downs. Sab, ngor geh gong dong wah gei hou gar!! Sia, who never failed in showing me the direction for and to the interviews. Chieu Mei, for the printer, not forgetting the late night talks. Cassie, for the courtesy of songs and pictures. Ky, who show me to the 'sort-of-know-it' place hehe... Susu, Moon, Fei Wen, Raymond, Prissy, Stephen... Last but not least, my Mommy, who understand me and never nudge me in this. THANK YOU ALL... arigatou... 谢谢... gamxia... merci... danke... sekian sahaja, terima-kasih!!! ^^

~Blessing all the friends out there who's still fighting for your future and life. May the force be with you~

跨年了

*今年的新年前夕过得很平静，没有往年热闹倒数，没有璀璨火花，只是静静的与另外几个老人家在家里BBQ，很开心。若干年后还有这一群老友相伴感觉真好 ^-^ 吃吃喝喝玩游戏,一直到凌晨4点，大家便开始不行了，进入昏睡状态……~_~ 最终各自归家去。
**回家之前，去了Titiwangsa抢先瞧瞧这座马来西亚史无前例的幸福摩天轮。从无到有，摩天轮就这样突然肃立眼前，我的确有点惊讶。马来西亚有望了！！哈哈哈……ky揣测说我的家说不定会因此而涨价，我变暴发户有望了！！哈哈哈……(我何时才能梦醒啊我…………) 当晚的摩天轮很黯淡，和周围环绕的湖水一样高深莫测，有一种让人不敢靠近的感觉。脑子里就是犹豫着，也许走近一点就会被湖里的水怪吃掉也不一定…… （是想太多了……） ***新年起床的第一天，我就感觉十分懊恼。原因一觉醒来已经5点傍晚了 -_____- 我妈咪见到我刚睡醒的样子，只是默默冷笑了两声，然后说“等下我们去pasar malam吃晚餐。” 她，已经麻木了，我是该感到欣慰好还是内疚？不过想想我又开朗起来，原因我忽然发觉养我自己并不是那么难得一件事，我可以一天只吃一餐罢了…… 所以，谁要来养我？？ +_+

****今天又去了个面试。睡醒时已经9点，面试时间10半，比我预定睡醒的时间迟了1个小时，oh no！！ 于是，我就以飞快的速度，10分钟以内刷牙洗脸化妆，再以驾飞机的速度驾着小白往目的地出发，10点正便到达了，phew... 但面试结果不是我想要的 -___- 我不是很想妥协，我不想…………虽然忧郁但往往都在想，会有更好的吧？想着想着3个月就那么无声无息地一啸而过，是过于乐观，还是挑剔呢？懊恼！！！回家途中我一个恍惚，小白就差那么一个饭盒的距离便撞上一辆摩托车。结果那个摩托骑士很气，比手画脚之余，还一路冒着生命危险高速地跟踪我，吓到我半死……好在我福大命大，在他越过我小白的时候，只是狠狠地瞪了我一眼，然后便开走了。哦弥陀佛………………

依然懊恼ing…………我要嫁人去了我…………