練習說再見

告別上一份工作
我反過來安慰同事朋友或自己
說總是相信goodbye沒有想像中的不好，as there's at least a word "good" in it，no？

好像再見一樣

我們也許會再見面也不一定

是夜我們並沒有要哭的衝動

大家相互擁抱說take care以後分道揚鑣

剩下的我只是疲憊

長期睡眠不足

一整個星期嘗試不去想像不能回鄉送婆婆最後一程的事實

然後一直想像如何在隔天立即把房裡的大小打包回家

但我還是辦到了

要萬分感恩秋妹桑義不容辭的幫忙

還有5個夜晚便踏入2014

我免不了回想2013

自己走訪了一些新地方認識了一些新朋友

仿佛才開始練習一個人生活便離開這個陌生又熟悉的地方

高低起伏的日子裡學習看開放下原諒開心

只希望在大起落後的其中長智慧變勇敢

酒量停滯沒進步的聖誕夜裡

嘔吐了一番之後換來很安穩的一覺

朦朧收到了一些虛幻但真實的問候

這次我們好好的說了再見

新年快樂。

hi merry x'mas

may I know who's this?

"I didn't want to forget him.

maybe I didn't want him to forget me."

tuesday with morrie/ mitch albom

in my life | week #42_2013

another 10 weeks more to go before we leap over to new year

time is ticking away so fast so that it slips past before you even realise

before i forget, one thing october demands is probably for me to at least pause and pen down the week #42

1_

be home finally (though the last time was just a month ago)

drenched in my room with no sunlight 

also got to eat pasar malam food on a rainy night

2_

keeping communications open keep ones a happier person

possibly keep no doubt overnight 

3_

learn to be flexible

tips: take a (many) deep breath, if necessary

4_

phone call with old friend lasted for more than four hours in the wee hours

feeling teenage all over again

some says: good friends are like stars, you don't always see them, but you do know that they are always there (to listen to your shit over and over again) #word

5_

donated my shadow 2 years ago to a total stranger

6_

received the first postcard at my new nest

made the room warmer, homier and more colourful to a certain extent

thanks for remembering me and sent me your love all the way from the land of long white cloud

7_

dipped into the pool on a weekday evening, trying to be healthy so to speak

then indulged on seafood cup noodle, for sentimental/lazy reason so to speak 

in all, tiny happiness worth celebrating

8_

three different persons talked to me over the same thing (!) within the same day

that is what i call strong coincidence and also a sign

let's do something about it, in no time

9_

sleep cures if not appeases emotion

before midnight

"like sunrise, sunset, we appear, we disappear. 
we are so important to some, but we are just passing through."

swim with the tide

多希望能隨波逐流

水裡來水裡去

好像你們一樣

但願人長久

但願人長久
千里共嬋娟

情人節快樂

這是第一首去年剛開始學習烏克麗麗之後自彈自唱的歌
適逢情人節我把它錄了下來送給了姊妹絲的一個驚喜
儘管破爛得可以還是莫名奇妙的騙取了她們一些善良的眼淚
然後今年
在我不能搭上雲霄飛車以後
我想隨性亂彈哼唱便是我暫時逃離某處的雲霄飛車
於是再錄一次
送給你親愛的朋友們
套張老板給城市的一句
「自由愛恨，只因榮幸。」
我愛你們。

有一種美好

被我們稱為音樂
聽著聽著又不覺得累了

happy new year

"i'd rather have something that is emotionally true than try to sing (play) it perfectly"
living up to zooey deschanel's spirit
or simply this is the best i can do for now

19.01.2013, 12.44pm, rainy day & night.

送給你心中未知的勇氣

before sunset

all ready for before midnight 

hello again

you would know how much this meant for me *all beside myself*

當時的月亮

假假想像一場下雨的雪天

無憂無病淡定喝一杯溫熱奶茶

寧可...也...

告別六月的第一天
一早起來就感覺耳朵痛
不知道這會不會是因為闰秒的關係
（話說地球轉得太慢的原因所以從今天開始全世界增加一秒）
無論如何很心虛的取消試水的約定
繼續睡並開始放肆的選擇性錯過早餐時間


耳朵還是莫名其妙的痛著
我想起幾個月前生病的時候
我對她說其實我寧可痛也不想一直暈下去
深怕別人不知道自己當時有多麼難受
一廂情願交換的結果：我換到了
（老天你有在聽我說的話吼）
那麼來臨下星期應該可以省下物理治療的預約
想想這應該是一件值得慶祝的事啊


於是不停衍生其他想法
好像我寧可破產也不想呆在家
結果這個週末也真的血拼到破產了（吼嘿）
還有我寧可明天去上班也不要耳朵痛...
我是說真的

i wish you love

i can't decide yet which version i like better.




i wish you bluebirds in the spring
to give your heart a song to sing
and then a kiss, but more than this
i wish you love


and in july a lemonade
to cool you in some leafy glade
i wish you health but more than wealth 
i wish you love 


my breaking heart and i agree
that you and i could never be
so with my best, my very best i set you free


i wish you shelter from the storm
a cozy fire to keep you warm
but most of all when snowflakes fall
i wish you love

my bunny lies over the sea

-

搖滾六月

夏日炎炎的六月是我每年最愛的一個月份

無從說明這是一個充滿愛與溫暖的一個月

好像通常記憶深刻的好事情都會陸續在這個階段發生

好比如生日

好比如今天新練習的甩頭

上下左右2hz頻率的甩法讓自己頓時成了復建室裡的搖滾客

甩頭同時還得專注閱讀眼前的字母後（只差沒音樂）

我和治療師對望十秒然後自個兒大笑起來（房子沒在飄啊～！）

接著視覺平衡走路彎腰拾筆都一一通過

=)

這些別人眼裡的一小步

對我而言

是一大步翻騰式的雲霄飛車

感謝天

讓我安然無恙的度過這一季奇妙的冒險

還有你

哪怕只是無心的放慢速度來迎合我的腳步的。

最後我說

死不去 更堅強（沒有押韻）

露桑立刻補充改正說

應該是：活下來 更堅強（還是沒押到！）

OK

祝你六月繼續搖滾，健康快樂，耶！

六星期長假的結束

要勇敢
會好的。